When financial security still doesn't feel safe enough
You've checked the account.
The bill is covered.
There's money coming in.
Nothing is actually on fire.
So why can't you relax?
Why do you still feel the urge to check again?
Work a little harder.
Hold onto more.
Think three steps ahead.
Recalculate.
Prepare for the thing that might go wrong.
For some capable, high-functioning women, having enough money and feeling safe enough with money are two very different experiences.
You can improve your income without improving your relationship with uncertainty.
You can build savings and still fear losing them.
You can become financially competent while remaining hypervigilant around money.
And you can reach a point you once imagined would finally make you feel secure — only to discover that your definition of enough has quietly moved again.
That's why the question isn't always:
“Do I have enough?”
Sometimes it's:
“What would happen if I stopped watching so closely?”
Why money anxiety doesn't always disappear when your finances improve
We tend to assume financial anxiety is caused by not having enough money.
Sometimes it absolutely is.
The cost of living, insecure employment, debt, housing costs, caring responsibilities and unexpected expenses create real financial pressure.
Therapy shouldn't turn genuine economic stress into a nervous-system problem.
But financial anxiety doesn't always map neatly onto someone's bank balance.
Our relationship with money can involve emotional, relational and behavioural factors as well as our objective financial circumstances.
That's why two people with similar finances can feel completely different about them.
One checks the account and moves on.
The other checks.
Checks again.
Runs through possible future expenses.
Feels briefly reassured.
And then starts worrying about what they may have forgotten.
The money may be adequate.
The feeling of being safe enough doesn't last.
Practical reflection: When you check your finances, are you looking for information — or reassurance? And if it's reassurance, how long does it actually last?
Sometimes relaxing feels riskier than worrying
This is the part that fascinates me.
We usually assume everybody wants to relax.
But what if vigilance has been useful?
Perhaps being prepared prevented things from going wrong.
Perhaps you grew up around financial instability.
Perhaps money disappeared unexpectedly.
Perhaps adults around you worried constantly about bills.
Perhaps you became financially independent because depending on somebody else didn't feel like an option.
Or perhaps your life rewarded you for being the one who anticipated problems before anyone else noticed them.
Then vigilance isn't simply an annoying habit.
It may have become associated with responsibility.
If I stay on top of everything, we'll be safe enough.
Which creates an uncomfortable possibility:
If I relax, something might happen.
Now slowing down isn't necessarily experienced as peaceful.
It can feel irresponsible.
Exposed.
Lazy.
Complacent.
Even risky.
So you keep moving.
Not necessarily because there is an immediate financial crisis, but because movement itself has become reassuring.
When financial control becomes a way of creating certainty
Control can be incredibly seductive around money.
Budgets.
Spreadsheets.
Savings targets.
Forecasts.
Emergency funds.
Insurance.
Planning.
None of these things is inherently problematic.
In fact, they're often very sensible.
The question is what happens inside you when you can't control the outcome.
Can you make a financial plan and then put it down?
Can you tolerate an unexpected expense without immediately imagining the worst?
Can you spend money you've deliberately allocated for enjoyment without feeling compelled to compensate afterwards?
Can you make a reasonable financial decision without researching every possible alternative?
Can you let enough be enough?
Sometimes a useful financial behaviour gradually becomes responsible for managing an emotional state.
The spreadsheet isn't only organising money anymore.
It's organising anxiety.
And when that happens, no spreadsheet can permanently guarantee what you're asking it to guarantee:
That nothing unexpected will ever happen.
Because feeling safe enough isn't the same as having complete certainty.
Practical reflection: Ask yourself, “What am I hoping this extra checking, planning or controlling will make me feel?”
The moving target of “enough”
This is one of the most revealing money patterns.
You tell yourself:
I'll relax when I have $10,000 saved.
You reach it.
Then $20,000 feels safer.
You reach that.
Then perhaps you need six months of expenses.
A certain income.
The mortgage reduced.
The business earning more.
Another investment.
One more qualification.
One more good year.
The number changes.
The feeling doesn't.
That's worth noticing.
Because there is an important difference between financial goals that genuinely improve your circumstances and financial goals that have quietly been given the impossible job of eliminating uncertainty.
Money can provide choices.
Resources.
Housing.
Healthcare.
Time.
Support.
Opportunity.
A buffer when things go wrong.
Those things matter enormously.
But no amount of money can guarantee that life will remain predictable.
If the goal underneath the financial goal is:
“Then nothing bad can happen.”
Enough may remain permanently out of reach.
Perhaps the goal isn't absolute financial safety.
Perhaps it's learning what safe enough can feel like even when some uncertainty remains.
High-functioning women can be very good at growing around anxiety
This is where capability can hide a great deal.
You might not avoid money at all.
You might be excellent with it.
Organised.
Responsible.
Successful.
You pay everything on time.
You know where your superannuation is.
You have contingencies for your contingencies.
From the outside, nobody would describe you as financially anxious.
But internally, the experience can be very different.
You're always monitoring.
Always calculating.
Always thinking ahead.
You struggle to enjoy what you've built because some part of you is already preparing for losing it.
This is why I don't think we should define money anxiety only by obvious financial avoidance.
Sometimes anxiety says:
Don't look.
And sometimes it says:
Never stop looking.
Both can become exhausting.
When competence becomes part of the safety strategy
This is particularly relevant for the healthcare professionals, therapists and practitioners I work with.
Competence is often genuinely part of who you are.
But competence can also become something you depend on to feel safe enough.
If I'm prepared, I'll be okay.
If I'm useful, I belong.
If I'm financially independent, nobody can control me.
If I keep working, I'll have enough.
If I understand everything, nothing can catch me off guard.
There's nothing wrong with being capable.
The question is whether you've also become unable to put capability down.
Because eventually the strategy can become costly.
You may have financial stability but very little sense of spaciousness.
You may technically be able to work less but feel unable to.
You may have enough to take the holiday and spend the entire holiday calculating what you're not earning.
You may be successful and still feel one bad month away from disaster.
At that point, the question isn't:
“How can I become even better at managing money?”
It might be:
“What does managing money protect me from feeling?”
Money is a relationship ~ and some relationships are hard to trust
Something has become increasingly central to my work:
I see money as a relationship.
And trust matters in relationships.
If your experience has taught you that money is unpredictable, scarce, controlling, conditional or easily lost, it makes sense that trusting the relationship might be difficult.
Money arrives and you hold tightly.
Money leaves and you feel unsettled.
You receive and immediately think about what you owe.
You have enough today but can't quite trust that enough will still be there tomorrow.
This can resemble other relational experiences.
If people have been unpredictable, you may monitor people.
If money has been unpredictable, you may monitor money.
If depending on another person once left you vulnerable, financial independence may come to represent far more than financial competence.
It may mean:
No one gets to control me.
Or:
I never want to be in that position again.
Or simply:
If I have enough money, I'll finally be safe enough.
That's not necessarily a budgeting problem.
It can be relational meaning attached to money.
And that's one reason I find relational approaches to money work so useful.
When money recreates an old relationship
Sometimes our relationship with money can begin to resemble relationships we've had with people.
You monitor it.
Try to keep it happy.
Never quite trust it to stay.
Feel powerful when there's plenty and deeply unsettled when there isn't.
You work harder to maintain the relationship.
And somehow, no matter how much effort you put in, you never completely relax.
For people who have experienced controlling, conditional, inconsistent or narcissistic relationship dynamics, there can sometimes be familiar echoes.
Not because money itself is narcissistic.
Money doesn't have a personality.
But the relational pattern around it can feel strangely familiar.
The goalposts keep moving.
You never feel quite good enough.
You remain hyperaware of what could go wrong.
You believe security depends on getting everything right.
And you keep thinking:
If I could finally get this under control, then I could relax.
This raises a question I think is worth sitting with:
Am I trying to create financial security — or am I asking money to repair an older sense of relational insecurity?
They aren't necessarily the same thing.
What if feeling safe enough doesn't require certainty?
This is where I want to redefine what we're actually working towards.
Because “financial safety” can sound as though we're trying to reach a blissful state where money never worries us again.
That's not realistic.
Financial life contains uncertainty.
Expenses happen.
Income changes.
Businesses have quieter months.
Markets move.
People become ill.
Relationships change.
Life refuses to follow the spreadsheet.
So perhaps feeling financially safe enough isn't:
Nothing unexpected will happen.
Perhaps it's closer to:
I trust myself to respond when something does.
That's a very different kind of safety.
One depends on controlling the future.
The other allows some uncertainty while developing greater confidence in your capacity to meet it.
And that's why I prefer the language safe enough.
Not perfectly safe.
Not guaranteed.
Not permanently calm.
Safe enough to remain present.
Safe enough to make a decision.
Safe enough to receive.
Safe enough to tolerate some uncertainty without immediately trying to eliminate it.
Practical reflection: Finish these two sentences and notice what changes:
“I will finally be safe when…”
and:
“I can support myself when…”
Why forcing yourself to relax usually doesn't work
Telling an anxious person to relax has an impressive track record of not making anyone relax.
The same applies to money.
You can tell yourself:
Stop worrying.
You've got enough.
You're being ridiculous.
Other people have it worse.
None of that necessarily changes the response.
It can simply add shame to anxiety.
A more useful starting point can be curiosity.
What am I expecting?
What am I trying to prevent?
What does relaxing mean to me?
What am I afraid I'll miss if I stop monitoring?
What happened in my family when people weren't financially prepared?
What would having “enough” allow me to stop doing?
And what would feeling safe enough look like if certainty wasn't required?
Those questions take us underneath the behaviour.
And that's often where therapy becomes useful.
How body-based and relational therapy can approach money anxiety
I don't assume that every experience of money anxiety is trauma.
Nor do I assume that every financial behaviour needs therapy.
Sometimes the solution really is practical.
A budget.
An accountant.
A financial adviser.
A debt-repayment plan.
Better systems.
A clearer understanding of your numbers.
Those interventions matter.
But when your financial circumstances and your emotional response seem badly out of proportion — or when you've already addressed the practical issues and still can't settle — therapy can provide another place to look.
In my work, that may include approaches such as Relational-Integrative EMDR, EMDR, Brainspotting, parts-informed work and somatic awareness, depending on the person and what we're working with.
We might explore:
What happens in your body around financial uncertainty?
Which part of you needs control?
What does that part believe would happen if it stopped?
When did being financially prepared become so important?
Is money carrying meaning from another relationship?
What does having more represent?
What does losing it represent?
And what would safe enough mean to you?
The aim isn't to make you careless about money.
Quite the opposite.
It's to explore whether responsible financial behaviour can exist without requiring constant internal vigilance.
What does feeling safe enough with money actually look like?
Probably not throwing away your budget and booking a one-way flight to somewhere tropical.
It can be much quieter.
Checking the account once instead of five times.
Making a planned purchase without spending the evening regretting it.
Letting an invoice be outstanding for a day without imagining your business is collapsing.
Taking time off without calculating your lost income every few hours.
Having an unexpected expense and dealing with it without immediately rewriting your entire financial future.
Letting yourself enjoy something you've deliberately saved for.
Recognising the difference between a financial problem and a financial feeling.
Being able to say:
“I don't know exactly what will happen, but I can respond when I know more.”
You still care about money.
You still make thoughtful decisions.
You still plan.
But money doesn't require quite so much of your attention for you to feel safe enough.
That's the shift.
Safe enough is not the same as comfortable
This distinction matters.
Feeling safe enough doesn't mean every financial decision becomes comfortable.
You may still feel nervous when increasing your fees.
Uncomfortable making a large purchase.
Disappointed when an unexpected bill arrives.
Uncertain when income fluctuates.
Safe enough doesn't mean the absence of activation.
It means there can be enough internal capacity to notice the activation without automatically handing it control of the decision.
You can feel discomfort and pause.
You can feel uncertainty and gather information.
You can feel fear and still recognise that fear isn't always a forecast.
That's very different from trying to eliminate every uncomfortable response before allowing yourself to live.
A different way to measure financial safety
Instead of asking:
“Do I have enough yet?”
Try asking:
“What happens inside me when I already have enough for this moment?”
Can you notice it?
Can you let it register?
Can you resist immediately moving the finish line?
Can you allow yourself five minutes in which there isn't another financial problem to solve?
For someone accustomed to vigilance, that can be surprisingly difficult.
And surprisingly revealing.
Because perhaps relaxing about money isn't something that happens automatically once you've finally accumulated the correct amount.
Perhaps part of the work is learning that rest doesn't mean you've stopped paying attention.
That uncertainty doesn't automatically mean danger.
That being responsible doesn't require being vigilant every minute.
That safe enough doesn't require a guarantee.
And that you can care about your financial future without sacrificing your entire present to it.
What Do I Mean by Money Trauma?
When I use the term money trauma, I'm not only talking about a single traumatic event involving money.
I'm using it through a broader relational, intergenerational and contextual lens.
I see money as relational because none of us develops a relationship with money in isolation.
Long before we earn our first pay cheque, we're already learning what money means.
We watch who has it.
Who controls it.
Who is allowed to ask for it.
Who works for it.
Who gives it away.
Who goes without.
Who has financial power in a relationship and who doesn't.
We notice whether money creates freedom, conflict, secrecy, shame, dependence, status, safety or belonging.
And we absorb messages about what kind of person we're supposed to become in relation to it.
So when I talk about money trauma, I'm interested not only in what happened to you financially, but in the wider relationships, histories and systems that have helped shape what money means to you.
Money trauma can be personal
Sometimes there is a clear personal experience.
Growing up without enough.
Financial abuse or coercive control.
A painful divorce.
Bankruptcy.
Homelessness.
Suddenly losing an income.
Being financially dependent on someone unsafe.
Having money withheld as punishment.
Watching parents fight about money.
Being shamed for needing things.
Having to become financially responsible too young.
Being repeatedly rescued — or repeatedly expected to rescue everybody else.
Those experiences can understandably affect how someone responds to money later.
But that's only one layer.
Money trauma can also be relational
Money exists between people.
It can influence power, choice, dependency, generosity, obligation, freedom and belonging.
This means our relationship with money can sometimes reproduce dynamics we've experienced in other relationships.
You might feel you have to earn the right to receive.
You might over-give so nobody can accuse you of being selfish.
You might struggle to charge appropriately because another person's disappointment feels unbearable.
You might hold tightly to money because depending on somebody else once felt dangerous.
You might spend money to create connection.
Or give it away because having more than somebody you love creates guilt.
You might feel that receiving always creates a debt that must eventually be repaid.
In this sense, what appears to be a financial pattern may also be a relational one.
As I often describe it:
Sometimes relational patterns turn up wearing a money costume.
Money trauma can be intergenerational
Then there are the money rules we inherit from our families.
Some are spoken openly:
Money doesn't grow on trees.
People like us don't have that kind of money.
You have to work hard for every dollar.
Never depend on anyone financially.
Rich people are greedy.
Don't get too big for your boots.
Others are never spoken at all.
They're learned through observation.
Perhaps your family survived poverty.
Perhaps a parent lost everything.
Perhaps women in your family had little financial independence.
Perhaps money was controlled by one person.
Perhaps security depended on working relentlessly.
Perhaps spending attracted criticism.
Perhaps nobody talked about money, yet everybody worried about it.
You may be living in very different circumstances now while still carrying some of the relational rules, fears, loyalties and protective strategies that developed within that family system.
So one question I often find more interesting than:
“What's wrong with my money mindset?”
is:
“What did the people who raised me need to believe about money in order to survive their circumstances?”
And then:
“Do I still need to live by the same rules?”
Money has an ancestral and historical context
For some families and communities, we need to look further back.
Our ancestors did not all experience money, property, work, safety and economic power in the same way.
Family and community histories may include slavery, colonisation, persecution, forced migration, displacement, war, dispossession, famine, discriminatory laws, stolen property, exclusion from education or employment, restrictions on women's financial autonomy, or being prevented from owning land, businesses or wealth.
Other ancestral histories may include sudden loss of status, property or livelihood.
And some families survived precisely because they learned to hide what they had, stay inconspicuous, work relentlessly, rely heavily on their own community, or never assume that today's security would still exist tomorrow.
I'm careful here.
I don't think we need to claim that a particular ancestor's financial trauma is literally stored unchanged in someone's body to recognise that history can shape families across generations.
Stories are transmitted.
Silences are transmitted.
Values are transmitted.
Parenting practices are transmitted.
Economic opportunities and disadvantages are transmitted.
So are attitudes towards risk, authority, work, property, education, debt, receiving, saving and who can safely become visible or successful.
For someone whose family history includes persecution or dispossession, for example, accumulating wealth may carry a very different emotional meaning from someone whose family has experienced generations of stable property ownership.
The numbers may be today's numbers.
The meaning attached to them can have a much longer history.
Money trauma can also be cultural and societal
None of us develops our relationship with money outside culture.
Gender matters.
Race and ethnicity can matter.
Class matters.
Disability can matter.
Migration matters.
Religion can matter.
Sexuality, family structure and access to education can matter.
The society we live in sends powerful messages about who should have money, who deserves it, what successful people look like, what women should charge, whether carers should profit from caring, whether wealth makes someone admirable or morally suspect, and whether wanting more is ambitious, selfish, responsible or greedy.
For women in particular, money can collide with expectations around nurturing, sacrifice, likeability and care.
For healthcare professionals and therapists, another layer can appear:
If helping people is meaningful work, is it ethical to make good money from it?
That isn't merely a pricing question.
It can become an identity and relational question.
Can I care deeply and charge appropriately?
Can I earn well without exploiting anyone?
Can I want financial security and still be a good person?
Can I receive without taking something away from somebody else?
Those questions deserve more than:
“Change your money mindset.”
How money is earned matters too
This is another part of money work I don't want to overlook.
Not all money feels the same.
How we acquire money can affect our relationship with receiving it.
Money earned through work that feels congruent with our values may feel very different from money associated with exploitation, coercion, secrecy or work we don't feel ethically comfortable participating in.
Inherited money can carry its own complexity too, particularly when it arrives alongside grief, family conflict, guilt or questions about how family wealth was created.
Someone may want greater wealth while simultaneously holding a strong belief that wealthy people exploit others.
A therapist may want a financially sustainable practice while believing care should never feel commercial.
Someone who inherited money after a painful death may experience grief and guilt alongside gratitude.
A person whose family accumulated wealth through practices they now regard as harmful may have complicated feelings about benefiting from it.
And somebody from a family or community that was historically exploited may experience wealth-building as liberation while another part worries about betraying their community or becoming associated with the very systems that harmed them.
These aren't simply limiting beliefs waiting to be corrected.
Sometimes they are genuine ethical tensions.
The goal isn't necessarily to convince ourselves that every way of making money is acceptable.
It may be to ask:
What does ethical receiving look like for me?
How do I want money to move through my life?
What am I willing ~ and unwilling ~ to exchange for it?
Can financial growth remain congruent with my values?
That's a very different conversation from simply trying to “manifest more.”
My definition of money trauma is broader
When I use money trauma in my work, I'm interested in the distress, protective patterns and relational meanings around money that can emerge through the interaction of:
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personal financial experiences
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attachment and relationship experiences
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family money rules and roles
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intergenerational patterns
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ancestral and historical experiences
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cultural and societal expectations
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gender, class and structural inequalities
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experiences of power, dependence and financial control
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moral and religious beliefs about wealth
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ethical concerns about earning, receiving and accumulating money
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experiences of scarcity, loss, persecution, displacement or dispossession
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belonging, loyalty and visibility
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what having “more” might mean within someone's family or community
That doesn't mean every uncomfortable feeling about money is trauma.
And it doesn't mean every financial difficulty should be psychologised.
Sometimes there simply isn't enough money.
Sometimes the system really is unfair.
Sometimes a workplace is underpaying you.
Sometimes discrimination is real.
Sometimes the financial advice needs to change rather than your nervous system.
A relational understanding of money trauma should make room for those realities rather than explaining them away.
For me, the important question is:
What has money come to mean in your relationships ~ with yourself, other people, your family, your culture, your history and the world around you?
Why RI-EMDR makes sense to me for money trauma
This broader definition is also why Relational-Integrative EMDR (RI-EMDR) feels like such a natural fit for the way I approach money work.
If money were simply a collection of irrational thoughts, we could concentrate on changing the thoughts.
But if money is relational, the work may need to be relational too.
RI-EMDR gives me a framework for becoming curious about the different layers surrounding a present-day response.
The relationship.
The attachment pattern.
The protective part.
The body response.
The earlier experience.
The family rule.
The intergenerational story.
And, where it is meaningful for the person, the ancestral themes and imprints that form part of how they understand their history.
Instead of only asking:
“Why am I anxious about money?”
we can ask:
“What relationship am I having with money?”
“Where did I learn this relationship?”
“Who else in my family had to relate to money this way?”
“What did this pattern once protect?”
“What happens to belonging if I do something different?”
“What does receiving bring up?”
“What happens if I become more financially visible or successful than the people who came before me?”
“Can I have more without becoming someone I don't want to be?”
And perhaps one of the most important questions:
“Which parts of this story are mine to keep, and which am I ready to relate to differently?”
That's why I don't see money trauma as simply a faulty belief about money.
For some people, money sits at the meeting point of relationship, history, identity, power, belonging, ethics and safety.
And when we understand it that way, the goal isn't merely to become “better with money.”
It's to develop a relationship with money that feels more congruent, conscious and safe enough ~ without losing sight of where you came from, what you value, or who you want to be.
Frequently Asked Questions About Money Anxiety, Money Trauma and Feeling Safe Enough
Why can't I relax about money even when I have enough?
Having adequate financial resources and feeling financially safe enough aren't necessarily the same experience.
Current financial pressures, previous instability, family experiences, anxiety, relationships and learned financial behaviours can all influence how secure money feels.
Sometimes the question isn't simply how much you have, but what having, losing, spending or receiving money has come to mean to you.
Can you have financial anxiety even if you earn a good income?
Yes.
Income is only one part of financial wellbeing.
Expenses, debt, employment security, caring responsibilities, financial history, expectations and a person's relationship with money can all contribute to financial stress.
A higher income also doesn't necessarily resolve patterns of vigilance, overworking or fear of losing what you've built.
Why do I keep checking my bank account?
Sometimes checking is simply good financial management.
But repeated checking can also become a way of seeking reassurance.
One clue is whether the information helps you make a practical decision or whether you feel compelled to check again soon afterwards because the relief didn't last.
Does money anxiety always mean money trauma?
Not necessarily.
Sometimes anxiety around money reflects what is happening right now — not having enough, insecure work, debt, rising living costs, uncertainty or financial decisions that genuinely need attention.
But I also use money trauma more broadly than a single traumatic financial event.
I'm interested in whether someone's present relationship with money has been shaped by earlier relationships, family money rules, financial control, intergenerational experiences, cultural expectations, structural inequalities or ancestral and historical experiences.
The question isn't simply:
“Is this trauma or isn't it?”
I'm more interested in:
“What has shaped the way I relate to money, and does that relationship still serve me now?”
That allows us to remain curious without turning every uncomfortable financial experience into a trauma response.
What does “safe enough” mean in therapy?
For me, safe enough recognises that therapy and life cannot offer perfect safety or certainty.
It means there is enough support, capacity and choice to remain present with an experience without needing everything uncomfortable to disappear first.
Around money, that might mean being able to experience uncertainty while still making a considered decision rather than automatically avoiding, controlling or overreacting.
Can therapy help with financial anxiety and money trauma?
It can.
Sometimes the most useful intervention is practical financial support.
At other times, anxiety, shame, hypervigilance, avoidance, control or relational patterns continue even when someone understands their finances very well.
That's where therapy may provide another way of exploring what is happening.
Because I understand money relationally, my work can include Relational-Integrative EMDR, EMDR, Brainspotting, parts-informed approaches and somatic awareness, depending on the person and their needs.
Therapy doesn't replace appropriate financial advice.
Sometimes both are valuable.
Maybe You Don't Need to Try Harder to Feel Safe Enough
If you can't relax about money, the answer may not be another savings target.
And it may not be telling yourself to stop worrying.
It might begin with understanding what your vigilance has been doing for you.
Perhaps it has helped you feel responsible.
Prepared.
Independent.
In control.
Safe enough.
We don't need to shame those strategies.
But we can become curious about whether they still need to work quite so hard.
Because financial wellbeing isn't only about what you've accumulated.
It's also about whether you can occasionally experience what you've worked so hard to create.
Enough doesn't mean nothing can go wrong.
Feeling safe enough means you don't have to spend every moment preparing for the possibility that it will.
And perhaps the deeper question isn't only:
“How much money do I need to feel safe enough?”
Perhaps it's also:
“What kind of relationship with money do I want to have now?”
One based less on vigilance, fear and proving.
And more on choice, congruence, ethical receiving and trust in your capacity to respond.
If you're a healthcare professional, therapist or practitioner who recognises yourself here, this is part of the money, body and relational work I explore in therapy.
